Culture Shock in Wrong Places

Hi!

It's been a long time, huh? yeah a long..................time
Wait, it's exactly 1 year ago! same date, month, different year.
I decided to reblog my blog-later-when i have free time- since school realy takes my time and energy.
To be honest, I wrote a lot of things but I don't want to post them because... i don't know.
It's been 1  month and 15 days since i came back from Russia. I can't believe it, I still feel like I'm not in my home- Indonesia. Weird is the only word that can express everything or the only word that suitable for evey (wrong) situation.
Almost 2 months, but I still feel the shock even in my own homecountry, and  homesick, and still wishing i could come back home,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,home....
My room feels empty
Katya is not there anymore every evening
I can't eat Mama's Kasha every morning
I don't here Papa's voice every morning saying "Inda, are you ready? go, go"
I don't need to chase for the bus almost every day with Marina because we(Marina) always worried if we were going to be late for school. Bus 83, Trolleybus 3. 
I can't see my 4 cats
I can't walk around city with Yulia every weekend or every holiday.
I can't talk about K-Pop and stuff with Aliya.
Don't study with them anymore, celebrate prazdnik and give podarok...
Can't talk about everything wuth Anette
I.....
I......miss my life as an exchange student, no-as a Russian, as a normal person who was born there and always pretended that I'm a local resident.

That's enough..

No matter how hard I try to put those memories in a box that I don't need to open anymore, still I can't.
I know it's weird but I sometimes hear Katya's voice when I'm alone and see here almost everywhere. It's kinda scary but I like it, feels like I'm still there, and She's still here,

Thanks everyone, I have great memories that I don't need to remember every second time, but I will never forget those memories, every single moment.


Love,

Indochka


Medan, 21 Agustus 2015

Bye!