Hi!
That one word, hi- I hardly ever heard it anymore. Everything was fine until 2 days before today, when I know that what I have been loving from days to days, doesn't love me, that thing belongs to someone else for now. The saddest thing is, you can only keep it yourself. Because, I don't know.
I feel funny when I practically can solve such as hard problems but I can't solve this thing.
That moment when you can only see your diamond among rocks but you can not take it,
that moment when you feel like your scars washed by lemon,
that moment when you really can't handle yourself and then you lose control, boom, you blow up.
That moment when you realize that.....
things are not meant to be yours,
you're just 8 of 10,
you're nobody,
you're........
you.
And you can do nothing about it. You just have to accept and fix your self- your heart.
It's just me, I can't make things as I wish, once again, I have to try to be the best of me.
A friend of mine kept saying this "Good things take time", but in this case, I have no chance, but yeah, I do believe if I always try to be the best version of me, all I need- not all I want- will come with their best versions.
I feel like a weak now but, блин , I am a fuxxxxg exchange student, I MUST handle things independently. if I can not handle things myself, who will?
Все Хорошо.
Dadah!
Kazan, 8 Desember 2014
